(5.13.26) ... ORDINARY EVIL

im so angry why cant my therapist be here right now God this is so fucking stupid i dont wanna talk to anyone because theyre all evil and do nothing to change it I hop e its just a bad dream ill wakeup from because this is genuine torture Hey guys Im back in 2020 Fighting for friendships nobody else is fighting for Hey guys im stuck in one sided friendships where people complain about me being triggered after they actively trigger me after i tell them my triggers Hey guys i need to talk to more people bruh

(5.10.26) ... HELLO?

hello? hello? Happy mothers day. hello? hello? I have work today hello o_o We go years without it, whats another couple days Anyway Wanyway Nanywyay Updating site. Updating... Site... a bunch. Very fun, btw. I hope everyone I know and Love gets into coding at least once, Thank you. I gave my mom a build a bear plush for mothers day that i made when i went to a mall for the first time. at least the first time i can remember anyway She likes the smell of lavendar So It shall be scented Lavender. Lavandar? Lavender. Right.

(3.25.26) ... UMMMMM

I regret a lot today, but I am meeting my therapist for the first time on April 1st -- I think I'll like being alone for the sake of my improvement and others' safety, haha. Will be starting my new meds at 12 AM, (abilify), which i've heard helps with mood and outbursts ^_^ though in some cases it does the opposite, I'm not talking to anyone for a while, so I should be able to talk to a professional about my medicine and what I need without doing anything drastic in public, heh

(3.23.26) ...

i always feel so weird when i get good news about my life and then something terrible happens

it's like a mood stabilizer and i always feel so empty about anything good or bad that happens after or beforehand -- i did get a job, though! it makes me happy to know i can save for my future and have money for oc merch, but (EDITED OUT.)

(3.22.26) ... YAY

ok didn't realize i put february for the blog posts instead of march actual dumbass over here

i finally figured out how to make the galerry scrollable, because if it wasn't scrollable, it would just move the 'LATEST' sidebar around. and it obviously wasn't something I wanted because it looked really gross. never ever letting that happen again bro stop

(3.20.26) ... FIRST BLOG POST

wow this is my first blog post, haha...